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Reading this sends me back to 9th grade. My best freind had a party at his house while his dad was out of town. He was hot for a girl in our class and she was at the party but wasn't hot for him. I guess they talked and he drank a few beers, went upstairs and put his dads 357 in his ear and ended everything. We heard the shot and the rest was a mess of blood, hair, people screaming and crying, police, ambulance, questioning, etc. It was the hard on me and others for a long time. You are on the right track seeking help. You should also find something to keep you mind on (school or a project). You might even need to put the bike away for a while if it is a flashback trigger. The sharp edge of the trammatic end should dull as time goes on. Hang in there.